Life has been quite busy for many of us here.
2023 was a rough year for our family. I was pulled in many directions, and again, it led to choices. Couldn't be everywhere at once. Needed to be able to give myself time as well, though, also dropped items that should have been on my list.
I had way too much to do, and realized that I could not complete all. Gardens were left to care for themselves, house projects were put on hold.
I went with things that give joy and life to our family, recognizing that the stuff i left have some financial consequences in penalties, relationships. (Not lack of funds, just lack of time to dedicate). So, the grandkids nighties and pjs were finished. Christmas meals were prepared and served. Great nieces/nephews toys were made. Emails were left unanswered. Tasks were left undone. Christmas baking was not done. Secret Santa was not joined. Paperwork was not filed. Relationship follow-ups were not done. Didn't visit folks.
Got into a bit of avoidance, as well, which in turned caused for a rise in anxiety as tasks need to be done before I can head to see my sister again. I think some of it was self-preservation, as I needed sleep and to let my body recover from a cold; however, anxiety does not make for good sleeping.
I also chose time to wee ones that bring joy and give much needed relief to parents, over sitting in front of a computer. Life can be short. We have a death happening in the next week or so in the family, reminder of choices and challenges.
Maybe it is the sun shining, maybe it is that I am aware it is time to get stuff done, but, got a few things accomplished today that need to be done before I can head to be with my sister again.
I am thankful for the old threads that exist that can be found with keywords, and provide guidance from wise ones no longer with us.
