There are professions where doing your job will result in negative consequences for individuals and friends though positive for others. Mine does normally result in negative consequences, but I am working on something which facilitates change which includes negative consequences. To do my work, I find that I need to be able to compartmentalize and focus on tasks. I am faced with emotional people.
I am aware that the situation means this next year will be more of a learning opportunity than anticipated in ways that I hadn't expected.
It also means that on days like today, when I am not focused on those tasks, that sadness can sweep in.
I am aware of folks who face that kind of dilemma all the time, the ones who are social workers, police, bankruptcy officials, bankers, health care workers, and so on. The challenge to focus on the task at hand, the complexities of the right path .
So today, i am being gentle with myself, and this weekend, I am being mellow as indicated. I have read two books so far this weekend, gone and relaxed with a friend over coffee, spent time with Dad, and watched a classic chick flick - Love Actually.
Soon, work will kick back in, but for today but for today, I will let all of me be present in me.