crazyheart
Rest In Peace: tomorrow,tomorrow
My family, Pilgrim's Progress and Pinga have encouraged me to create a thread. WC and WC2 have
been a life line for me since WC started You have travelled with me through breast Cancer,masectomy ,Radiation Treatment,',
and 5 years of anti estrogen pills. I have never admitted this before but I am convinced that stress and cancer go hand
and hand. In my last 3years of ministry, I was bullied by the new ordained minister. It was a very tough
time I am a strong woman but it was more than I could Take. I became a victim. I lost weight and became someone
I didn't know or like. I was ready to retire so I left. He got rid of me and in less than a year walked away.
He accomplished what he set out to do.
CrazyDad was my strength. With in a year I had cancer. I did everything they said and I beat it. Left me with
COPD and compromised lungs.
Surgery would not be in my future.
Morley ,then , began showing symptons of Parkinsons but also Looey Body Dementia. When he got very sick
with hallucinations and not knowing me, stress became my constant companion and the family and myself
made the decision to put him in a nursing home. Wolseley was about an hour away but it was wonderful and he
loved it there. He passed three month later on Valentines day. So much happened in such a short time I knew
I was not a good caregiver. I knew he was sick but I also know I could have done better. 3 months later
I contacted pneumonia (even though, I had the shots) On the 10th day they told me they found 2 spots on my lung
which they would monitor. A month a go the growth became worrisome. Only my family knew and I was the
subject of a meeting. I needed a Pet/CT scan (only one in the province in Saskatoon) then I would have needed a lung
biopsy but too dangerous. Lung might collapse)and a heavy duty 2 or 3 treatments of radiation that can only
be done in Winnipeg. But at the meeting they decided that I qualified for a trial run here in Regina at the
Cancer Clinic. Getting back to stress, Morley's illness, my inadequatcy in caregiving, worrying about my kids'moving
caused me to get cancer the second time.(IMO)
So, I have had the Pet Scan in Saskatoon and was storm stayed and my daughter got rear ended in the
snow and blizzard but did not have damage or get hurt. Had a short time with my son. He was such a help.
This week the cancer clinic asked for blood tests, ultra sound of thyroid, and ct scan of adrenal gland..i have a
consultation May 4 with radiation onocologist.
friends have their own lives and disappear, church friends the same. I feel isolated and my whole support is my family
and my few friends that are left and my dear friends on Wonder Café 2
I get anxious and emotional and that irritates my breathing. I am always whining. Please bear with me,
crazyheart
been a life line for me since WC started You have travelled with me through breast Cancer,masectomy ,Radiation Treatment,',
and 5 years of anti estrogen pills. I have never admitted this before but I am convinced that stress and cancer go hand
and hand. In my last 3years of ministry, I was bullied by the new ordained minister. It was a very tough
time I am a strong woman but it was more than I could Take. I became a victim. I lost weight and became someone
I didn't know or like. I was ready to retire so I left. He got rid of me and in less than a year walked away.
He accomplished what he set out to do.
CrazyDad was my strength. With in a year I had cancer. I did everything they said and I beat it. Left me with
COPD and compromised lungs.
Surgery would not be in my future.
Morley ,then , began showing symptons of Parkinsons but also Looey Body Dementia. When he got very sick
with hallucinations and not knowing me, stress became my constant companion and the family and myself
made the decision to put him in a nursing home. Wolseley was about an hour away but it was wonderful and he
loved it there. He passed three month later on Valentines day. So much happened in such a short time I knew
I was not a good caregiver. I knew he was sick but I also know I could have done better. 3 months later
I contacted pneumonia (even though, I had the shots) On the 10th day they told me they found 2 spots on my lung
which they would monitor. A month a go the growth became worrisome. Only my family knew and I was the
subject of a meeting. I needed a Pet/CT scan (only one in the province in Saskatoon) then I would have needed a lung
biopsy but too dangerous. Lung might collapse)and a heavy duty 2 or 3 treatments of radiation that can only
be done in Winnipeg. But at the meeting they decided that I qualified for a trial run here in Regina at the
Cancer Clinic. Getting back to stress, Morley's illness, my inadequatcy in caregiving, worrying about my kids'moving
caused me to get cancer the second time.(IMO)
So, I have had the Pet Scan in Saskatoon and was storm stayed and my daughter got rear ended in the
snow and blizzard but did not have damage or get hurt. Had a short time with my son. He was such a help.
This week the cancer clinic asked for blood tests, ultra sound of thyroid, and ct scan of adrenal gland..i have a
consultation May 4 with radiation onocologist.
friends have their own lives and disappear, church friends the same. I feel isolated and my whole support is my family
and my few friends that are left and my dear friends on Wonder Café 2
I get anxious and emotional and that irritates my breathing. I am always whining. Please bear with me,
crazyheart