Thanks Tabitha, yes, I think part of my issue was being tired and not thinking straight. I could have thrown on pj's and gone downstairs, I could have called room service, and asked the guy to bring me up a couple of bottle water (lol, after pj's thrown on). i could have made tea...and likely the tea would have done it, i think part of it was caffeine withdrawal.
Had a really good dinner with friends. They are clever, the conversation just keeps rolling, the conversation is about life, past employers, work, professional interests, and person success. All is good. Good to laugh, good to have people who get it. They also were encouraging me to consider a different avenue from the one that I was picking, primarily due to the $$$ that I could choose and the abnility to manage my own work. I just am not sure....i get their point, but I have to do what s right for me...so going to listen to both sides and make decision. good news is that I have a few months before i make a decision