Good morning all you Roomies - those that frequent the room, and post, and those that frequent the room (often or occasionally) and just view and reflect . . .
On Monday it snowed . . . and snowed and snowed . . . it is too early for snow!
Snow continued on Tuesday . . . and it snowed and snowed . . . the roads were icy. Later in the afternoon it warmed up enough to melt the snow on the roads, but there is still a residue of it on the grass and land everywhere. As I look out my living room window, I see large, ominious black clouds in the sky . . . they are moving and I hope they move before they release any precipitation. It is +2 right now, and it would probably take the form of freezing rain - we do not need that.
Yesterday, when everything was so icy and there was so much snow, was one of the handivan days for my daughter. The handivan comes two days a week and takes her to and from work. On those days, especially when conditions are such as this, I have to keep releasing her and letting her go, otherwise I would stew throughout the times she is coming and going. The handivan drivers are volunteers and of different ages and stages - some are older gentlemen. They are supposed to meet her at the door and guide her to the vehicle, but some of them don't (some of the older ones who I also worry about with her in case they fell). This time of year, and spring, is so hard for her (and therefore for me). It makes me want to take back control and driver her myself . . . or have her dad drive her as my physical strength (although getting better) is not the best either. I know I cannot take control back, and that we have to face whatever we have to face, as this is preparation for her life for when we are gone or no longer can care for her the way we have. Parenting doesn't get any easier does it - even when our children are adults and on their own. I know what difficulties and challenges we face, and I know that others face them too - just in different shapes and forms.
I am still working on "living in the present" . . . but I have to keep drawing myself back to that.
Today is a day I take her to work . . . so I shall soon be off and running - tea with some friends, some shopping, and then her drive to work.
Hope everyone here has a day that brings hope, strength, fulfillment, and joy.
