Hugs, Northwind. You've got a lot to process. And yes, many people live many years these days with chronic "terminal" illness; I mean, life is terminal, right? I hope you can construct a drug/treatment regime that will allow some of your travel plans to come to fruition.
I could do with a healing of some sort. My skin has recently taken a sharp turn for the worse, and sometimes I think I will go mad with itching. Forgot to take an antihistamine this a.m., and if you could scratch your own skin off, I'm trying. In desperation over a patch on my leg that made me resist shorts all summer, I made the mistake, probably, of trying a topical immune suppressant (prescribed by a dermatologist and resisted by me for a couple of years, because it's actually banned by the FDA, although the NHS is fine with it; there is a rare side effect of squamous cell cancer), and honestly, I think it just encourages the movement of these patches into new areas, while the 'old' patch never fully heals and gets re-irritated easily. I have not changed my diet, or any detergents, although I've done dishes at the church a bit more often recently, but my hands are perfectly clear at present, which is rare. I have two huge new patches on my torso which are particularly itchy/painful/irritated. And my poor scalp is just covered, so brushing my hair is painful. I've given up on doctor and n-p (they have three strategies: anti-fungal, cortisone cream, or burn it off), my dermatologist has since lost his license, so I think I may have to try a naturopath or something. I have visions of living on white rice for months...