There’s got to be a parallel universe/ alternate history/ more “heavenly” existence. Because after 2.5 million years of human evolution, we’ve taken ourselves to the brink of extinction - some are Ivy League animals even - we're some real dumbasses who need saving and there’s got to be a place where we’ve come together. I have faith that such a place exists. It’s impossible to have proof, so I’m agnostic. Maybe it’s in the future, maybe it’s in some quantum reality.
That said, the notion of a God who would create us as being fallible so that we screw up so much and hurt each other and experience tragedy so he could save us sounds like a psychopath and I’m having a hard time with that. Not very happy with him, if he exists. He’s not making sense.
Consciousness comes from somewhere. We may not have free will. Those are things to consider. I’m angry with the idea that God would set humans up for all this pain and tragedy. I have faith that that isn’t necessary, if that makes sense. I don’t have faith that all this destruction is good.
The teachings of Jesus still make sense. I’m still Christian.