Consider what Luce is doing (and he’s really lost his s**t lately if you can see the change - and so if you try to get into what he’s saying - it’s often very dark - and if you follow him down his path of thought he hopes you’ll keep him company until the bitter end. Could be yours, though, if you do, so I wouldn’t recommend it as a way to escape depression.) … consider it running parallel to real life - it’s blurry these days with people behaving the same on and offline - and how people get taken advantage of in tough environments. The stress on the ground is palpable in cities in “lower” demographics. People with prejudices take aim at people with causes. And if he has actually has inside knowledge about anything going on in your life that you didn’t offer him - or he betrayed trust or privacy - it’s only because he’s been parasitic. And he’s given fuel to such people. And he’s cowardly. He’s happy to create and/ or facilitate chaos and watch and note the reaction, like he’s watching ants getting their ant hills disturbed and stomped on, or trapped. No feelings. It’s just an amusing “story” to a guy who’s had his nose buried in books for decades. Love is irrelevant to him. He’s disturbed. Maybe ramped up in recent years by his own stress? Nevertheless, it has “implications”. His word games - like he’s playing God but he isn’t - are mind manipulations. I think he has real world followers. People who found him here or found me here then him - something like that. But if true, it’s not benign. And it’s not because I’m a big shot but because I’m not - and my insecurity got preyed on and he helped. I actually asked him for help with something thinking he was a friend, and this is what I got. And…pointing it out makes me look insane. Completely glossing over his insane posting style. Really?! And it figures this happens to me from trying to understand and care about the misunderstood. Now he’ll try to guilt me for rejecting a further drag down.
I read old posts from years ago and it’s much less obvious - even the blowups here then are usually less significant - but I also remember old conversations we had like he’s trying to teach me how to think like him - I resisted I guess, bad girl - and he turned up the “pain” level. It’s at 11/10 now.
And I just want to say, pardon my crudeness, but: Nobody’s a f***in mule! … that’s his spiritual delusion he’s trying to project.