Feeling “Northwind’s” absence here in weightier discussions. Seeing her avatar, feeling sad that she’s gone. It’s hard to believe. It is but it isn’t (we knew she was ill but she was strong willed and strong minded until the end). Just - feels like she’s still here but taking a break. I thought we’d meet up sometime soon (did once years ago, I’ve mentioned). I so regret that we didn’t.
It’s Christmas. Several people aren’t here anymore, and I wasn’t expecting she’d leave us yet.
Though we had big spats sometimes, she was actually a strong advocate for me and I miss her. I even miss the stubbornness lol (and I guess that stubbornness is why I felt like she’d pull through again). We had views in common. Maybe more than differences. She made a point to message me just to chat about a topic not long before she passed. Maybe as a way to say goodbye without saying it.
I wonder if she knew how punk rock she was lol