It has been a month since my surgery. I feel pretty good and am healing well. I wrote this on my FB support group. I have not asked about the pathology report yet. Maybe next week.
I am glad October is over. It is often called Pinktober and we are bombarded with breast cancer "awareness" initiatives all month. We're bombarded with pink items where the funds raised will allegedly be given to breast cancer research. Check into where the money is going. Most of this is pinkwashing for marketing purposes. Little money raised goes to any breast cancer fund. The movie Pink Ribbons is an excellent documentary about this phenomenon.
Pink Ribbons Inc. I encourage you to watch it to learn more.
Part of the reason I'm glad October is done, besides the constant reminders, is that all this breast cancer awareness stuff has lead to us not taking it as the serious illness/condition that it is. There is the perception that it isn't that bad and that it is curable. I fell prey to this thinking myself. Still, it is a deadly disease that kills people. It is scary.
Some people have contacted me privately to ask more about my surgery. I have been deliberately vague about it for a variety of reasons. While I was ready for it, or as ready as one can be, it was still hard to say or write the words. I had a double mastectomy. I only needed a single but chose a double for a variety of reasons. My surgeon was supportive and agreed to do the double. He did encourage me to have it done in two surgeries and agreed to doing both at once after we talked about it a bit. I have no plans at this point to get reconstruction. I don't want silicone in me and the surgeries involving using the individual's tissue seem far too invasive for what is essentially cosmetic surgery. My breasts were not my most important body part.
I'm thankful to friends and Facebook support groups (I know right) who have shown me that flat is a legitimate option. I'm thankful that my surgeon respected my wishes and only asked about reconstruction without putting pressure on me. I will probably get prosthetics so I have choices. Or I might not. I need to heal a bit more before I make that decision. Speaking of healing, I'm healing well with minimal or at least bearable pain. My neck and foot have caused far more pain than this. I will be calling my surgeon and oncologist on Tuesday to ask about the pathology report. The surgeon was confused by something in it and was going to talk to the pathologist. I suspect he was confused by the same thing that confused me. Nothing horrible, just in the category of mixed messages. I need to clarify a few things. Of course the pile of questions happen after leaving the doctor's office.
I'm thankful to be feeling almost normal again. I have a good amount of energy and am so thankful for that. I am continuing to take this one day at a time.