DaisyJane
I probably should be working.
Warning: This is a long post, mostly because I need to vent. But I wouldn't mind some thoughts about how to handle touchy in-law situations.
December 2019 was a write off. I spent virtually every day simply trying to get through the day, and then the subsequent night. We started the month with urgent medical visits to deal with Matthew's hip pain - he has a congenitally dislocated hip. A week later I called 911 because he went into respiratory failure. He spent almost two weeks in the ICU. I was there every single day. Nine of those days he was intubated. Because of his complexity he wasn't stepped down to a unit, but rather discharged directly from the ICU home. The general feeling is that wards often can't handle complex cases like my son. We have better equipment, and usually better staffing, at home. But we came home just before Christmas so most of our home care staff had booked off. This meant that I spent most of the holidays managing his care almost solo. I was up every 2-3 hours through the night because of his need for care and medications. I also hosted 20 for Christmas dinner. It goes without saying that I bought and wrapped all the gifts - staying up late into the night after leaving the ICU. My in-laws arrived a few days after Christmas and stayed for a week. It is this last part that really did me in - and is what I am most upset about. I need a safe place to vent (here) and wouldn't mind some advice on how I might have been able to set better boundaries - so thanks for listening.
Prior to my in-laws arrival this year (just after the ICU discharge) I had mentioned to my husband that I wasn't sure I could "do" a week of hosting and wondered if we could juggle things. But he didn't feel that we could change things so late in the game. I am not sure why two weeks in the ICU didn't earn me a pass, but for some reason it didn't. What really bugs me is that my in-laws are known for telling me how things will play out, rather than consulting me. So I get phone calls that basically tell me when they're arriving, how long they're staying, and what I will be expected to do. At times that can include hosting meals for extended family. On the whole I don't mind this because I enjoy their company. But this year I was simply too burned out and felt quite resentful that there seemed to be no awareness of how overextended I was. No one thought to stop and ask what I felt I could handle given how overwhelming my December had been. What really hurt was that they ended up planning a large family gathering in such a way that I couldn't attend because of my son's care needs. So despite providing a B and B, purchasing the gifts, cooking meals, and so on, I didn't get to celebrate Christmas with the family. It feels a bit like I wasn't seen as a "real" member of the family because my absence was so inconsequential.
They just left a couple of days ago and I at the moment waffle between feeling so tired I could just sit down and cry, and feeling angry, frustrated, and hurt that they didn't stop to think of how their needs for Christmas/holidays usurped my need to manage my own self-care, and ultimately excluded me. I blew up at my husband earlier in the week and basically told him he was taking the week off work to "help". To be fair he did - take the week off work - I'm not sure he was all that helpful. But I resent the fact that I was essentially pushed to a minor temper tantrum before it occurred to him that he should step in - and he wouldn't have done so without the temper tantrum. Remember I had already (calmly) told him that I didn't feel I was up to hosting for a week. And before you ask, yes, there are other places they could have stayed, and other ways things could have been planned.
Tomorrow we supposedly return to "normal" life. I have an entire month's worth of work I am supposed to catch up on. I start teaching a new class on Thursday. The syllabus isn't even prepared, much less any lecture prep. I am presenting at a conference in less than two weeks. I haven't started preparing my talk or slides. And then there are all the meetings, appointments, and so on, I cancelled during December that need to be rescheduled. I am exhausted just thinking about it all. I am also still responsible for overnight care 4 out of 7 nights a week.
Thanks for letting my unload. Any thoughts about how I could have better managed the "in-law" situation?
December 2019 was a write off. I spent virtually every day simply trying to get through the day, and then the subsequent night. We started the month with urgent medical visits to deal with Matthew's hip pain - he has a congenitally dislocated hip. A week later I called 911 because he went into respiratory failure. He spent almost two weeks in the ICU. I was there every single day. Nine of those days he was intubated. Because of his complexity he wasn't stepped down to a unit, but rather discharged directly from the ICU home. The general feeling is that wards often can't handle complex cases like my son. We have better equipment, and usually better staffing, at home. But we came home just before Christmas so most of our home care staff had booked off. This meant that I spent most of the holidays managing his care almost solo. I was up every 2-3 hours through the night because of his need for care and medications. I also hosted 20 for Christmas dinner. It goes without saying that I bought and wrapped all the gifts - staying up late into the night after leaving the ICU. My in-laws arrived a few days after Christmas and stayed for a week. It is this last part that really did me in - and is what I am most upset about. I need a safe place to vent (here) and wouldn't mind some advice on how I might have been able to set better boundaries - so thanks for listening.
Prior to my in-laws arrival this year (just after the ICU discharge) I had mentioned to my husband that I wasn't sure I could "do" a week of hosting and wondered if we could juggle things. But he didn't feel that we could change things so late in the game. I am not sure why two weeks in the ICU didn't earn me a pass, but for some reason it didn't. What really bugs me is that my in-laws are known for telling me how things will play out, rather than consulting me. So I get phone calls that basically tell me when they're arriving, how long they're staying, and what I will be expected to do. At times that can include hosting meals for extended family. On the whole I don't mind this because I enjoy their company. But this year I was simply too burned out and felt quite resentful that there seemed to be no awareness of how overextended I was. No one thought to stop and ask what I felt I could handle given how overwhelming my December had been. What really hurt was that they ended up planning a large family gathering in such a way that I couldn't attend because of my son's care needs. So despite providing a B and B, purchasing the gifts, cooking meals, and so on, I didn't get to celebrate Christmas with the family. It feels a bit like I wasn't seen as a "real" member of the family because my absence was so inconsequential.
They just left a couple of days ago and I at the moment waffle between feeling so tired I could just sit down and cry, and feeling angry, frustrated, and hurt that they didn't stop to think of how their needs for Christmas/holidays usurped my need to manage my own self-care, and ultimately excluded me. I blew up at my husband earlier in the week and basically told him he was taking the week off work to "help". To be fair he did - take the week off work - I'm not sure he was all that helpful. But I resent the fact that I was essentially pushed to a minor temper tantrum before it occurred to him that he should step in - and he wouldn't have done so without the temper tantrum. Remember I had already (calmly) told him that I didn't feel I was up to hosting for a week. And before you ask, yes, there are other places they could have stayed, and other ways things could have been planned.
Tomorrow we supposedly return to "normal" life. I have an entire month's worth of work I am supposed to catch up on. I start teaching a new class on Thursday. The syllabus isn't even prepared, much less any lecture prep. I am presenting at a conference in less than two weeks. I haven't started preparing my talk or slides. And then there are all the meetings, appointments, and so on, I cancelled during December that need to be rescheduled. I am exhausted just thinking about it all. I am also still responsible for overnight care 4 out of 7 nights a week.
Thanks for letting my unload. Any thoughts about how I could have better managed the "in-law" situation?
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